I was at a friend’s wedding in 2009 – her sister was her bridesmaid and was asked to do the reading. Usually when I think of a wedding reading, it’s a bible verse or a traditional blessing from India or something along those lines – so it came as a surprise to hear the one her sister chose.
Sitting in a little chapel in Kei Mouth, on a blustery Saturday afternoon in October, I listened to the words she read out. I hung on to them, processed them, and tried my damndest to remember them.
The reading was taken from a child’s story book – Velveteen Rabbit – not a book I had read. You see, reading wasn’t on my list of priorities as a child, much to my mom’s dismay – climbing a tree or dressing my dolls over and over were much more appealing. It’s only nowadays that I realise how much I missed out, and I plan to make it up to myself (reading that is) – one day.
When coming up with a name for my Blog – i went back to that day, and remembered the reading. I remembered that it was all about being real, and what it would feel like to be real. This was asked by a toy rabbit to a skin horse.
"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."
I realise that through this process of being heard, having a voice, and standing up for what I believe in, I may hurt people along the way, and in turn I may get hurt. But at least if we’re all feeling something, then we’re all still Real!
What I did omit to include in my first post what that the editor did offer me an editorial in the magazine down the line – which I was really excited about. I’m not sure what it was going to be about, but through that I do know that the magazine covers real people’s stories. I know this because I read the magazine. My point was that what was on the cover isn’t translating into what’s in the magazine – as is the case with most magazines on the shelves – but is this right? I’ll leave it there.
Here’s the rest of the reading.
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VELVETEEN RABBIT by Margery Williams
(this starts at the point when the Skin Horse and the Rabbit are talking)
The Skin Horse had lived longer in the nursery than any of the others. He was so old and most of the hairs in his tail had been pulled out to string bead necklaces. For nursery magic is very strange and wonderful, and only those playthings that are old and wise and experienced like the Skin Horse understand all about it.
"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."
"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.
"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."
"I suppose you are real?" said the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled.
"The Boy's Uncle made me Real," he said. "That was a great many years ago; but once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always."
The Rabbit sighed. He thought it would be a long time before this magic called Real happened to him. He longed to become Real, to know what it felt like; and yet the idea of growing shabby and losing his eyes and whiskers was rather sad. He wished that he could become it without these uncomfortable things happening to him.